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ScaredI'm really scared.
   I have no words
To hide behind.
The words that save me
   The words
That express my heart
Just can't contain
   My fear
   And love
   And helplessness.
I'm afraid I'm losing you,
I love you too much,
I don't know what to do…

My mind is whirling.
   My thoughts are unravelled
Into frantic fragments.
I can't think
   My mind is numb
With the thoughts of possibilities,
What you might be thinking
   I want to die
   Nobody loves me
   I have no one.
I need you in my life,
I love you too much,
You will always have me…

I'm lost in darkness
   Without your guiding
Angelic light.
I can't
To Be Your ManTo be your man, it would be amazing.
To treat you the way you truly deserve.
To love you and give you everything.
To show you how much you are worth.

I see the way he doesn't look at you.
The way he waves away your touch.
I see the way he doesn't listen to you.
While I hang on every word you speak.

I see the tears that you never cried.
The pain you hold inside your heart.
And I saw the bruise your tried to hide.
The shape of his hand around your arm.

I pray one day you will finally realize.
Your lips deserve the kiss of true love.
While he preys with a lovers disguise.
And drains you of any ounce of pride.

Your heart is so pre
Are You?                                                                                  When I'm thinking of you,
                           
Rainy Days*pitter patter, pitter patter*

The hand of night drew upon the little valley
Wind echoed off the hills
Rain hit the houses shingles like a beating drum
Its rhythm making me drowsy

*pitter patter, pitter patter*

A fire burned bright from where I was lying
The golden-red flames enticed my eyes into their dance
Their invisible words caressing my ears

*pitter patter, pitter patter*

I lied on the couch
My arms dangling limply from the floor
My cool hair spilt onto the floor like almond-brown milk
I stared in a trance at the ceiling
As though it were clear glass
Watching the rain fall

*pitter patter, pitter patter*

I smiled, as I closed my e
Stars and Street LightsI know that they are hiding now,
Yet the starts will come out,
And you don't know how,
To confront this fear and sorrow.

The beauty in this awful world
Is so hard to see with the dimming light
Of the street lights,
Yet they are bright and just stay tight,
While I fight the evil that is hurled,
Right at me, oh can't you see?

The street lights that shine bright,
Illuminate the darkness of the night
That holds the evil that just claws,
At your wrist like a heavy saw.

But hold on to that dimming light,
Don't ever let your mind
Wander and go white
With fright and leave you standing blind.

I know they are hiding now,
Yet the stars will come out
Thief of Heartsemotions are in flux,
his mind racing.
the phone vibrates, incoming text.
it's not from her.
a sip of whisky brings slight
numbing to his lips,
but it will take many more for the
sensation to spread.
to reach where the real pain lay burried.
he had constructed a wall
around that area years ago.
but somehow she had found a way in.
and so damn fast...
he could ponder for hours as to
how that was even possible and not come
to any rational explaination.
it had just happened.
and he had been unprepared.
she was different from the others.
more cunning...
almost fox-like.
she had snatched up his heart
and left him in pursuit.
Believe InIts ultimately the angels versus the demons
Can't stradle the crack
Got a pick the side you believe in.
One side is policing while the other side is freeman
But the free comes with a price of headache, heartache, and diseases
Greed, lies, and treason.
Feet don't fail me now, im almost out of the region.
Just follow the model till the end of the season
This is my thoughts and reasons.
Find something you believe in.
Farewell
I am a whisper in the wind, i am a flower in the grass

I will always be with you in every day you pass

Please, do not cry, not with your eyes so fair

Just remember i'm always with you, no matter where

You will mourn for me, like all people might do

But just remember in your heart that i loved you

I'm afraid we will never cross again until you come with me

But, i know in your heart you will keep our memories

I will try to move on, i will try to say strong

Because i know the road i travel will be so long

I will watch you, i'll watch you from afar

May it be the rising sun or the only falling star

I know you will miss me and i'll miss
Happy Father's Day
Tell me boy, what exactly are you worth,
If you can't even remember his voice?
He was with you since the day of your birth,
So explain to me why you made the choice

To forget; to erase everything
And anything that you possibly could?
I still remember how he used to sing
For you on your birthdays, and how he would

Pick you up and plant kisses on your cheek.
Why would you want to lose the memory
Of how he took you to the park each week?
And I beg you to think of the times he

Took off early from work, just to see you,
Or those many nights when he stayed awake,
Cheering you up whenever you felt blue,
Or fed you  if you had a s
Quietly I SitQuietly I sit, and listen to the ticking.
Empty chairs around me, blank page on my lap.
At intervals, next door, the trill of phones
And the answering chirp
Interrupt the keyboard's tapping.
Bland words strained through a perpetual smile
Lukewarm and sterile as the cream-painted walls.
From above, on hearing's edge, drift murmurs,
As tangled thoughts are unpicked
And troubled minds laid bare.

Toys beside me in a plastic crate.
It would have been a trove, once -
Comfort used to be so simple.
Through today's eyes, they appear lifeless
And lonely.
Spiderman lies, legs twisted, beneath a car.
Action figures limply await their next
HOWL POETRY CHALLENGEPOETRY CHALLENGE
My literature prof posed this challenge to us while we were studying Allen Ginsberg's poem Howl. Even for someone like myself who isn't a poetry enthusiast this was an incredible poem to study and an awesome challenge.

The challenge is this:
Rewrite the first few – or as many as you'd like – stanzas of Howl so that it reflects (as cheesy as it sounds) something that is meaningful to you.

The link will be posted below.

This is my VERY amateur attempt at this:

I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by depression
twisted, aching paralysis,
drifting through joyless hours by day
unable to rise from b
FallenFlames pour out the holes of my cheeks
empty hollows reek of lost
i fought my way through broken bones
blood spattered roses black as coal
dread building so purely inside
tears, frozen in time
i find myself sitting in the chambers
locked, shackles forced upon my hands
i asked why
but they answered with hate
voices crystal clear but lost in the valleys
reconizable but confusing
they're the voices of those i hold dear
the ones i tried to protect for all those years
i'm lost, confused, and running
into the stone wall
tripping over their skulls
i fall
now there's no one there to pick me up
no voice of courage
no reason to look
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look at me
tell me what you see
look at me
who am i
look at me
tell me what you see
you see me
if you look at me
you see what i really am
i stand
i stumble
on every second step
i get up again
you say i am strong
you say i don't give up'
you say i have the courage to stand
but...
i disagree...
i may stand
not because i feel like i haveto
i may get up again
not because i have the courage to do it
i'm afraid..
i get up again
because i'm scared of being down too long
i stand
because i'm scared of losing
i am wounded
i am bleeding
beaten to death
i still stand
not because i'm strong
it's because i'm weak
too scared to give up
beaten, bleeding
broken, bleeding
wounded, bleeding
i've been hit to ground
i didn't dodge
even if i could have
i will not dodge
never...
i will stand
i will wait to get hit
i will get up again
just to get hit down again
no.. i'm not strong
just scared
of giving up...

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Mood: Distracted ~Mikizzi Mar 10, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
i like this. people always think im strong and not scared of anything but if they would just actually look, like really look, at me they'd see a person who's just running scared. I dont get up because im strong i get b/c staying down is more dangerous, when im up i can roll with the blows and run. . .Im not funny,perfect, or trying to tease you im protecting myself, to be open is be...vulnerable. im scared to let down my wall, im scared to drown in those dark unknown waters. I cry myself to sleep when something gets through my wall, sneeks up me, and presents me with...life? love? When someones see's me behind mu wall i bluff and smile, when the turn their back for a second i run as fast as I possibly can. to be open is to be vulnerable, that scares me.


Sorry bout that ^, fingers kept just kept moving :)
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~Orkekum Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
:iconbowplz:

And a long comment is ok, i like well made comments :thumbsup:
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~Orkekum Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
:iconbowplz:

And a long comment is ok, i like well made comments :thumbsup:
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~Mikizzi Mar 15, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
:aww: thanks. Good consructive comments are nice.
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~Orkekum Mar 16, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
yup :thumbsup:
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~VWStiti Jan 15, 2011
Kaunista tekstiä! :nod: Hyvä hyvä! :clap:
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~Orkekum Jan 15, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Kiitpksia :iconbowplz:
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~VWStiti Jan 16, 2011
Ole hyvä! :D
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~8ShiNoTenshi8 Jan 14, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
this is amazing. i love the way it flows and all the emotion in it.
nice job! :D
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~Orkekum Jan 14, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you :bow:
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